all we know is falling
Yesterday, our president dropped a huge bombshell on us. No thanks to 2 missing violins, our CCA would be suspended for two weeks, maybe even more, as investigations are conducted.
My first reaction was, NOOoooooOOOoooOOoOoOoooOOO!!!!!!!!!
It was as though a huge chunk of me had been ripped out. "NOOOOOooooooOOO!!!!!" I moaned to my seniors. "NPStrings is my home!!!"
I know, I once threatened to quit. But it was only an empty threat. I was an asshole then. But deep in my heart, NPStrings is where I know I belong. Having been part of a happy family for only less than a year, I was reluctant to let it go.
And then a sudden realisation hit me like a flying brick.
No Saturday lessons for at least two weeks.
It dawned on me how much I took Mr Kong and Mr Ma for granted. I turned up late for almost all the lessons, didn't put in much effort in learning the cello, often giving up on a song I was working on and playing the piano instead. And on the rare occasions I played with Mr Kong, I didn't play well. "There's always next time," I reassured myself.
Now, I don't know when the next time is.
I have yet to play Butterfly Lovers properly with Mr Kong. Same goes for Beethoven's Spring Sonata.
I have not taken a photo with Mr Kong or Mr Ma. (This is what depresses me most.)
I have not mastered tremolo and vibrato. I also have not mastered a single piece, because I get tired of playing the same thing over and over again.
I have not seen the best of Mr Kong yet. I want to see him play Tchaikovsky's Violin Concerto, maybe even play with him.
Our president talked to us just now. He said that the club had been on the verge of shutting down last year, when 2 violins had also gone missing, and that it could happen this time.
And when my favourite senior told me that he wanted to quit NPStrings, all I was aware of was my happy little world crashing around me.
The destruction of my beloved CCA is now complete.
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